Sunday, July 31, 2016

I have NF, part 2

It has been four years since I started my blog of battling and surviving NF. My first blog, I have NF,  was about NF affecting my life in all areas, and how I have overcome it. Without knowing it, I have been giving myself therapy by writing my struggles and short comings.

When I first began writing, I was still in college and struggling to find meaning and motivation for the career path I had chosen. I was in a very unhealthy and self-destructive relationship, and I was still trying to make sense of my father's infidelity which lead to my parent's divorce. In 2012 I was emotionally lost and burnt out. I was trying to find meaning to life.

Now, four years later, I can happily and honestly say that I am no longer the same person I was in 2012. I graduated college and shortly after began working in the Crisis Center of Tampa Bay.  I finally ended the emotionally draining and damaging relationship with the person I thought I loved. By putting an end to that relationship, a great man was put in my life, a man that has truly shown me what love is. And although I have not fully healed from my father's infidelity, I am in a better place.

This year I turned 29. It brings me to tears to recall the young girl I was before I began writing because I do not like the person I was and who potentially could have become. But I have to own up to those emotions and experiences because I would not be the person I am today if it were not for my struggles and heart breaks.

So, I am 29 years old and live with NF, so what? I will never, not have NF, so why just focus this blog on NF? I am so much more than neurofibromatosis.  I have said this so many times before but have not shown it on my posts. I need to practice what I preach. So, you get to know Angela as a whole not just NF Angela.

Let's end with a few updates:

I did not write a June post because I was in Colombia visiting family and reconnecting with my roots. I simply did not have the mindset to write a post.

I got a promotion at my job. I am now a Lead Intervention Specialist! With that being said, I also got MVP for the month of June!