NF Single Lady

~I used to be terrified with the thought of being single because I equated singlehood to not being attractive to the opposite sex.~

I am a self-proclaimed hopeless romantic; I believe in true-deep-crazy love that can drive you insane. Even as a kid, I created love stories for my barbies and also partnered up my stuffed animals.  By the time I was ten or twelve, I had envisioned my own love story. I told my self that I would be married by the age of twenty-five and mom of four by my thirties. Of course, I would meet the love of my life, either in high school or college. We would both be successful professionals that would travel the world. 

But then everything changed. By the time I was in high school, I had started having doubts that I would ever find my prince. After my dad left and moved in with his mistress, my believe in true love had vanished. Despite this, part of me still had that glimmer of hope that one day I would be swept off my feet. This frame of thought continued well into my first relationship. Brian brought back to life the hopeless romantic in me! After my relationship with Brian fizzled, I knew that if it happened once, it could happen once more...

In September of 2013, I met Joe, he and I would date for three years. At the age of 26 years old, I had truly debunked the idea that men wouldn't find me attractive. For the longest time, I kept replaying the words of someone I called a close friend,(someone I had a massive crush on)  that deeply hurt me. On many nights, I would hear his voice in my head say, " Angela will never have a boyfriend because men will never find her attractive." Just because he did not think I was pretty, attractive or worth it does not mean that others thought the same. He was obviously wrong. And to be frank, he missed out on an awesome chick.. me!

It has been over two years since my relationship with Joe ended, and I am perfectly happy being single. I know perfectly well that being single has nothing to do with men, not finding me attractive because I know that I am attractive. The only real reason I am still single is that I am incredibly picky.

I am no longer terrified of being single!